When things feel like they are on the edge of falling apart, all I can do it tell myself that nothing is permanent. I find it a little bit hard to take control when I cannot find the controls. It's not so bad; I miss my friend. We are not meant to live alone. I recently learned that human infants will die if they are never touched. It blew my mind. So I learned more about babies and our innate needs. Always searching for answers, reasons, some fucking explanation. Why is my friend sad? And why am I? So I learned about happiness, and turns out most of us aren't happy. I guess it's no surprise when you open your eyes or ears.
Learning is no substitute for you.