When things feel like they are on the edge of falling apart, all I can do it tell myself that nothing is permanent.  I find it a little bit hard to take control when I cannot find the controls.  It's not so bad; I miss my friend.  We are not meant to live alone.  I recently learned that human infants will die if they are never touched.  It blew my mind.  So I learned more about babies and our innate needs.  Always searching for answers, reasons, some fucking explanation.  Why is my friend sad?  And why am I?  So I learned about happiness, and turns out most of us aren't happy.  I guess it's no surprise when you open your eyes or ears.

Learning is no substitute for you.